How many of you know that the best kind
of wrecked heart, is a heart when God is the one doing the wrecking?
When God comes in and shines light on all the dark areas of your
heart, parts that hid fear, resentment, parts that hid lies from the
enemy that became truth to you, because you came into agreement.
When God wrecked my heart, over these
past few days, He exposed something that I was unaware of... The
truth was... I was really worried that God would not provide for what
He has called. I was scared that if I walked the path that was
designated for me, that I would be left alone, secluded.
Home school my kids? Am I ready? Can I
really home school my children? Father, how many kids do you plan on
blessing us with? Three I think I could handle, but you have given us
a heart for a large family, so I'm not for sure why You continue to
guide me and place it on my heart to home school.
Father, don't you see that I'll be
secluded, and SO different, and to be honest this isn't what I really
had planned on, I wanted to be that mom that was very active and
involved in school, and I don't think that i'll be able to find the
connection that I want through home schooling my children. I mean
Lord, You made me a social butterfly. Plus, will my kids be
weird?? (My lowest point), this beautiful broken point is when the Holy
Spirit just flooded the presence of the room, a wave of absolute love
came pouring over me, clarity dissolved every fear that I had....
The spirit told me “They will not be
weird, they will be followers of God, They will have a heart for God,
to stand in turth, they will not just know of God, they will have an
understanding (not a complete) of the love their Father has for them.
They will look toward the bigger picture, with a charge of purity
over their lives.”
But Lord, I wanted to change the world
for you! “My child, you already are. Will you let your fears keep
you from all that I have for you? Fear sometimes masquerades as
wisdom.”
The problem that I was experiencing, is
that I was allowing fear to masquerade as wisdom, I thought me
questioning my ability and the situations was a mark of wisdom. But
when God calls you to do something, and you begin to question, you
aren't questioning yourself, you are questioning the Lords ability to
change you to accomplish His purpose, The Lord can do a lot with a
surrendered heart. The moment your personal knowledge contradicts the
truth that the Lord has spoken over your life, you have to make a
decision. Either bring your person knowledge under the authority of
the Almighty, or you come into agreement with a lie, and miss out on
what the Lord has prepared beforehand.
There can only be ONE holder of your
heart, if your heart is only partially held by the Lord, then you
will only partially walk the path that was created for you. When God
holds our heart we don't continue to go against His world, He writes
His laws on our hearts, we must become a new man. If we continue to
to walk against the Truth of the Lord, we are not sons, we are
slaves. We remain slaves despite the fact that our freedom was
purchased with blood, despite the fact that the price has been paid,
by the Son of God.
Until God's delight, until God's
appluse, until God's acceptance is ALL that matters, we will continue
to walk in response to the world, not in response to the Father. As
my grandpa says, “Lord, I'll sleep under a tree and eat beans,
doesn't matter to me, I'll go wherever you want, I'll do whatever you
want.”
If we have a yielded heart... We will
produce the fruit of the Spirit, the fruit of the Spirit will be what
changes the world, it is what the world is craving to see, it is what
the world is lacking, leaving heart break and brokeness. We must stop
being fruitless, we were never meant to walk without producing a good
harvest. We have to reexamine our lives and ask, is this season I am in
producing good fruit? And if it isn't cry out to the Lord, to turn
from being slaves, to sons who produce good fruit.
Galatians 5:22-26
Let us stop living under the works of
the flesh (Gal. 5:19-21) we are told that those who practice such
things will not inherit the Kingdom of God.
Father,
I pray you touch each life that reads
this, that you expose those dark areas of the heart, that only You
can infiltrate, causing a repented heart to come upon each person, so each has a change in their way of thinking. That the Holy Spirit, fills the room of those reading and
draws a line in the sand. Saying, the time is now.
The decision is now, to let go of each of these dark areas of the
heart, to release the bondage that has made them slaves to the flesh
and pour out the love of The Father, showing the price that has been
paid. Father, leave a hunger and thrust with each person, to touch
their lives and give a heart of thanksgiving even in the darkest of
seasons. Remind each of us that we have a responsibility to produce
good fruit, turning from the old man and being made new. Abba, Father, not of us, not of our own strength, but from a place of Sons, in which You, the Almighty want to partner, to complete good works. All this in
Jesus name, Glory to you God.
